I agree with everything that you said. I am also one of the few people who still posts on here frequently. i believe with all my being that she is watching over us. I post on here so she will know that I love her and miss her everyday. She was my best friend in the world too. I was just thinking that her b-day is up soon. I never really attended any of her bashes" but I am sure they were great. She was one of the most wonderful peopple anyone could ever meet. Yes it does help a little to feel that she is watching us. i have noticed that when I feel down, i think she reaches out to me. maybe I may sound crazy but I hear a particular song. "I can only imagine" by mercy me..... I hear it alot on the radio and it was probably always there but I never remember it. to me it is amber telling me that she is still in my heart and in my dreams. I will continue to always post here, even with nothing in particular to say... i'll do it just because. well one good thing happed is I had my baby finally. as I have mentioned many times I was naming her in honor of amber. my daughter " Maddison Sunshine" 8-18-05 is my pride and joy and reminds me of her with her sunny personality. i just wish she would get to know amber. but I know that amber is already blessing her, just from the fact that I had a healthy safe labor. I have a suggestion that maybe there be a message board added here? instead of everyone writing comments in the stories. we could talk and ask eachother questions and put the stories here. I love you, Amber and I miss you so much. When I said my final goodbye to you I truly realized that it is absolutely better to love and have lost than to never have loved at all!!!!!!! XOXO