This is not really a story or a memeory. but I have so much I want to say all of the time. I am still having a really hard time with this. Here it is one year later, and it still feels like yesterday. i replay it over and over in my mind.
Amber was my best friend in the whole wide world. she made a wonderful impact on my life. i thank god everyday that i got to know her for 12 wonderful years. alot of miraculous things have happened and i believe she played her part.
for instance when it all happened i almost never found out. i was told by a mutual friend. and while the news hurt me hard. i will be forever thankful that i got to attend the services. i would have never forgiven myself if i could not have been there. my memories is that even in death she shown through as a radiant angel.
my point is i still think about her and miss her all the time. i still cry cuz i know i cannot see her or talk to her. but i am wrong there too. I did everything i could to go see her on 3-22-06. i did talk to her and i believe that she was there that day. that she will know that i visited. i am so happy that i can do a few meaningful things. i feel very out of touch and alone.
i gave her a bouquet of pink carnations. i knew she was very fond of the color. i also left her a card to tell her i loved her and wrote the date. i want her and everone to know i will never forget her. i am not implying anyone has. it just sucks to see the lack of stories on here.
i know it is hard and people are busy. i just like to know everyone thinks of her as often as i do. and that i apreciate all that she has ever done. and i commend and appraise her for all the wonderful memories she has made and a wonderful child she created for everyone to love. she is reflected in him.
well that was just a bunch of rambling. but unfortunately i don't have alot of actual stories. just many many odd thoughts. i love you and miss you amber, you will forever be in my heart and mind. we will always be best friends.