March 22 2005 I lost my beloved sister amber sunshine kilburn/garcia ....lost but not forgotten amber will live on through many friends and even more family she will not be forgotten. And till the day i join her and stand at her side at the gates of heaven I will embrace her memory every day and night for the rest of my life she was the greatest inspiration in my life I will never get over the tragic events that occurred that day I will always remember her greatness and how important she was to me , there are times where I just stop what ever I�m doing and something hits me it takes a second to realize im unconsciously remembering a memory of amber and I having a conversation, a place we went , or even a song we both sang and liked , and its hard to go back to whatever I was doing because I feel guilty to stop thinking about her so abruptly and go on with my day like its just another day but its not just another day it�s a day amber is not physically with us and only when I realize she�s still present in spirit and is probably looking at me and thinking I'm retarded for just standing there welcoming, then fighting my thoughts off can I get on with my day.